*from 4 years ago, time, date, etc unknown*
Most females are fake as shit.
They’re little girls “to their core” who throw tantrums and indulge in juvenile antics!
They’ll use their kids to instigate their antics and spy on their behalf.
They’re never to blame.
The story is usually: The man isn’t doing her right, yet she’s physically and financially abusing him and people in his family etc it’s a mess, I’m livid so fuck them all.
Now to lay my “cards” (reality) on the table, I’m NOT pleased with myself because I must be mindful of my “underlying intentions, actions, and reactions; while watching my words, the context in which I use them in and my tone.”
I’ve noticed my husband let’s it roll off his shoulders but the irritation lies in his eyes.
The pain is felt with his distance at times.
I’m hurting him.
I believe some things I’ve said and done honestly disgust him, despite my justification or the truth I’ve spoken; but his love for me and belief in my potential allows him to endure.
“this is my opinion” he MAY feel differently.
Some people “are” creatures of habit you know, but I digress!
I’m allowing my son to witness it then I feel bad or end up correcting Jr for something similar or for disrespecting his father and that’s fake.
I can’t be fake.
I have to be real.
To be real, every moment of everyday I remain conscious of my words the context I’m using them in and my tone because my husband does that with me. I can tell by him taking deep breaths in, long pauses etc.
Back to my initial point though, I don’t like a conniving cunt. ALWAYS wanting her way.
NEVER submitting = being supportive of her man and the greater good.
Oh selfish cunts.
They want oral sex, sex, anal sex, etc though.
These whores want their pockets lined, though don’t they? But won’t compromise to save their, their children’s, their loved ones lives etc from misery Smh
But no… Females would rather “go in” simply because she’s pissed. That’s little girl style. Not a woman.
Women are humble. Women use their words more than they acknowledge their emotions.
Females “girls” don’t understand a man needs a decent supportive spouse that “eases his stress” versus adding to it. A woman who supports his dreams especially when she disagrees because that might be his saving grace; his destiny.
Not always thinking what you want is right or what he’s capable of giving, it applies vice versa.
Women understand its about “support” not domination.
Girls on the other hand, view support as submission and submission is negative. Not comprehending that to be submissive is to be supportive. Supporting someone isn’t always about “having control or receiving recognition.”
Sometimes it’s simply about being the beam that the building is standing on that everyone passes by and never notices, but is fully aware is there securing the building in which they occupy.
It’s okay to “stay at home and tend to the children.” With all the things that are happening in the world it’s nice to see “domesticated, housewives!”
I am pursuing my own entrepreneurial endeavors however it’s based around “my life as a mother primarily and wife secondarily.” Being a mother is permanent and although being a wife should be, in today’s world, that’s unrealistic to “assume” that it will be.
However, I’m seeing such an “increase” in the amount of “single, independent, money hungry, label obsessed, etc” types of females that I’m not certain if women like myself who seek to live a life loosely based on the word of God, will stand a fighting chance.
I’ve gone under extreme scrutiny on a the few jobs I’ve had since becoming a mother and a wife. My “primary responsibilities” were always questioned. My supervisors were always “complementing my work” yet “disregarding” my “REAL LIFE!”
Working for a company is a “small piece” to the huge puzzle of my life!
I used to view the word “submission” in a negative light, until I realized when I was about “18” when my father died that submission is “being supportive in ax extremely humble manner where you digress from opposition completely.”
Once I learned that being submissive = supportive didn’t take anything from me, especially in regards to supporting my man, well now my husband; I actually learned that it added to me.
It gave me a stronger sense of self when I accepted that there was no need to “try and do things as a man does” or to “outdo a man” simply for the purpose of saying “I did this.”
I’m an executor by nature. Again, I labeled myself #HBIC at 7 years old and will maintain that title and capacity until I breathe my last breath!